Kenlove’s Weblog

its been a while since i last posted. alot has gone on since my last post. have u ever been studying for a test, writing a paper, or reading an old research paper from school, and learned something you didnt know was there before. or watched a movie and noticed something about it you didnt notice the  first time? i spoke to the singles class at my church, and am going to speak again after the first of the year. but as i was preparing for my next message, God revealed some things to me that were so amazing! things found in scripture that i had read  my whole life, all of a sudden clicked in my head. i love how it does that. and i will get so convicted when i am studying because through studying… God reveals sin in my life in  need to get right. such as i told the singles group how having a myspace or facebook isnt a sin, but what we put or allow to be put on there can turn into a sin or a bad testimony. i had two myspace at one time. one, spoke of God… the other i didnt mention God at all  and some friends i accepted put bad things on my site. so i deleted them and made a new one. i am tired of playing games with my walk with God. i worry too much about “what will they think of me if i say this or do this” even if i know God has laid it upon my heart i still question it because i know alor of my friends will say that they think what i am doing is selfish or inconsiderate. i know that decisions i will make in my life and my ministry(Lord willing) not everyone will agree with. in fact it may anger or offend dome people. but if i know its from God and that He wanted me to say it, they’re not mad at me but God. u praise God for how He has taught me, and how Hes growing me. i love You, Lord.

we are approaching the end of 2007. how has the chapter of 2007 been for you? is it one of those ones where you are glad you read and lived it? was it one of those ones that were so bad that you just put the book down about halfway through? did you even get through the first couple of pages?

 i reflect on 2007 as not the best year in my life, as a matter of fact if i was just gonna sit here and be negative id say it was the second worst year of my life. 1) i lost the girl i gave my heart to, after she admitted she never loved me. (2) i quit one of the best things that had ever happened to me (impact team), (3) i havent kept a job more than three months. alot of  negative things, right? (4) i would constantly fall into temptation, get up, get right with God, brush myself off… only to fall again. (5) i cant seem to get girls to stay attracted to me. i had two girls in a matter of two weeks crush me. i was just talking to them being friendly and started to like the first one, then she just all the sudden stopped talking to me. and then the situation that, strangely, had caused me to get really sad. i met a girl through a friend, we talked and instantly clicked. she told me to definatley call her, then i never heard from her again. i didnt really have any time to do something wrong to her.

but in all that i realized what i wrote in my last post… they all taught me something. today i am still in the process of looking for a job. it is starting to get depressing. but i’ve got to be persistant. and i am also starting something that needs prayer for. because i have tried this before and failed. you know right now i am coming to realize that God is trying to tell me something. and i need to listen. i need to stop being selfish and saying woe is me. but i need to start living for Him more. i am actually getting a head start now but my new years resolutions are in this order: 1) KEEP GOD FIRST, NO MATTER WHAT!!!! (2) get and/or keep a job (3) get in shape (4) move out (5) be more social

if i do all this but most importantly stay in Gods will and doing what i know He says is right… all of that will fall into place and in the process God will bring me someone to be my wife.

Lord,

i wanna go ahead and thank You for the year Youve allowed me to have. even though it wasnt the most enjoyable, it was one of the most interesting and caused me to learn ALOT! i also want to go ahead and thank You ahead of time for the year that is ahead of me, if You tarry. God please allow me to be used in the closing of this year and throughout next year. i need to start my life. We both know that. please give me discipline to do this. also Lord please gaurd my heart. i love You.

Amen