Kenlove’s Weblog

today, was amazing! i am preparing a message for church Wednesday night. i have the blessed opportunity to speak in front of our singles class(college age – anyone who’s not married). and in preparing this message, i realized that of all the things in this world that need figuring out, of all the things that are confusing to the point of exhaustion; there’s one thing that I’ve found to be true. and that’s that no matter who turns there back on me, no matter how many people that hurt me, no matter how lonely i feel, that God is right there for me. He always has been. the times when i thought no-one cared he was there holding my hand. and all the while that i was running, looking everywhere for some sort of peace, some sort of solace, some sort of…. love; in all that all i had to do was look up.

i realize that i can easily have temporary joy in doing things that everyone else is. Ive been to where id turn to alcohol, and all that did was leave me with an empty wallet and an empty feeling inside. i turned to sex, and all that did was leave me feeling dirty, feeling worthless. in all this chaos i was going through, i missed the easiest thing, Christ. His love surpasses any love i have ever felt. the peace and joy He gives me surpasses any amount of money i would ever get. the pleasure of knowing He’s given me everlasting life, passes any satisfaction i ever got from sex, any temporary pleasure i got from the bottom of a bottle. no matter what i try and compare to make me feel better than Christ makes me feel isn’t even close. yes, it hurts sometimes that i am 23 and i don’t even have a girlfriend. it hurts that i want so badly to start a family and be both a father to my children and husband to my wife. but the Bible teaches us to be content where God has us and to live for Him to the best of our ability. i love my Savior. alot of people don’t understand. but when you’ve been on both sides at one time or another… you realize how awesome God is and how much He loves you.  I’m gonna live for God, and eventually in His timing, He’ll give me the perfect woman. someone who’s whole life led her to meet me. every situation preparing her for a lifetime of love and happiness. i cant wait.

but like i said I’m gonna live for God right now, and for the rest of my life. Hes amazing!

“Every situation God places us in, every person He places in our lives prepares us for the future that only He can see” – Corrie Ten Boom